Making a Life

Thanks to the wonders of the internet I am able to consider folks who live far away in my living family. I am grateful to be able to connect with and get inspired by Christine and her blog The Aums. This time she really did me in, though.

Here is my response to Christine’s post “Let Me Turn My Worst Into My Best”:

Oh, mama, you’re getting me right where the hurt is.

Thank you for sharing this. I am so here right now, but with guilt for having to go to work and do work when I’m at home. I needed this. Just yesterday, I did this exact thing and swung her heavier, 15 month old body to sleep in my arms like I did when she was new. I cried, staring at her face finally calm after all the fussing. (from 0-5 teeth with 3 more on their way out in just a few weeks!) My heart struggled to hold the moment, her perfection too great.

What sweet, beautiful girls we have. Let us help remind each other to cherish them. It’s my turn now….

My daughter is young, still learning and growing in the most basic ways. She needs me. She is literally OF me, of my flesh. When she is hurting, scared, sad, confused, uncomfortable, unsure, under the weather….who else would she want but the one she knew as her whole world for almost one whole year?

It is from moments of slowing down and just being — being there for and with my daughter — that get me clear on what my beliefs and visions are. I want my family to live, to live together. Living is work, but as put in Your Money or Your Life,

“There’s a difference between ‘making a living’ and making a life.”

Christine and Palauma after a similar fussy day and similar maternal realizations.....

I have been having some tough moments lately. I want to live these little, hard moments and keep my perspective on work and money in check. I want to make a life with my quickly growing little one and my husband. I want to make a community with people like Christine. These things are good … and let ME turn my worst into my best.

3 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by Lata Murti on February 6, 2011 at 8:36 pm

    Well written. Good reflections for us all, no matter how we choose to live and be there for our children.

    Reply

  2. Posted by Sue Ann Harris on February 6, 2011 at 10:22 pm

    I want to do the same — and my “baby” is 11 years old — and my marriage 21 years old. I want to be able to enjoy precious moments with my family — instead of just letting all the moments be filled with “have to’s”. But it’s up to me to strike that balance — and I have a really difficult time doing so.

    Reply

  3. It is difficult for me to find balance, as well, so I empathize. It’s all in the trying and reflecting and questioning though, I suppose. Each day another opportunity…..

    Reply

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